Results of CSE are out and a line has been drawn that separates those who move on and those who will get a chance to get better. Such is fate. Last year I knew I would not make it, but still there was some wishful thinking, that some crazy fateful turn would get me into the list. But, i suppose that was not meant to happen. One should not resign to fate and should have faith, many say. I had faith but could not give comfort to my restless mind and to innocent queries of my parents about my chances this year. After all, it is written behind many trucks that waqt se pehle aur kismat se jyada kuch nahi milta. So, what if my time had not come and my kismat was in poor shape. Were the ancient monks of Ajivika sect right in their belief in absolute determinism. At least they had some peace in their hands up approach and leaving things to greater cosmic forces. But then this too is not a comfortable state of mind to be in. Ignorance, satisfaction in helplessness, resignation of control is a defeatist attitude. I don't think anything of immense value could be ever created with such outlook.
So, people have faith or don't, and experience what they call fate, but sooner or later they look forward to fairness.
What do people get in life? Is it what is pre ordained, or what they believe strongly in(shiddat etc), or what they deserve?
There are many Marathi lines that come to mind.. Thevile ananti taisechi rahave, chitti asu dyave samadhaan.. Saint Tukaram meant one must not be greedy and must be content in what one has.. of course he doesn't mean one must not put in efforts to better their situation. Another intriguing line that comes in Haripath by Saint Dnyaneshwar is.. Hari mukhe mhana, punyachi ganana kon kari.. meaning keep chanting lord's name and don't bother about how much your good deeds add up to..
Yet again we bathe in bliss of Bhakti and leave reign of fate into hands of faith and leave fairness to a higher power.
This post is turning out to be pointless, but it was never a point to begin with. It is a circle and we see that the 3 Fs revolve and one often refers to this circle using other F words, decides it is all futile, yet starts afresh.
I don't know if I can give credit to my faith for bending fate in my favor, but I do consider my aim fulfilled with fairness, and pray that same follows for others.
So, people have faith or don't, and experience what they call fate, but sooner or later they look forward to fairness.
What do people get in life? Is it what is pre ordained, or what they believe strongly in(shiddat etc), or what they deserve?
There are many Marathi lines that come to mind.. Thevile ananti taisechi rahave, chitti asu dyave samadhaan.. Saint Tukaram meant one must not be greedy and must be content in what one has.. of course he doesn't mean one must not put in efforts to better their situation. Another intriguing line that comes in Haripath by Saint Dnyaneshwar is.. Hari mukhe mhana, punyachi ganana kon kari.. meaning keep chanting lord's name and don't bother about how much your good deeds add up to..
Yet again we bathe in bliss of Bhakti and leave reign of fate into hands of faith and leave fairness to a higher power.
This post is turning out to be pointless, but it was never a point to begin with. It is a circle and we see that the 3 Fs revolve and one often refers to this circle using other F words, decides it is all futile, yet starts afresh.
I don't know if I can give credit to my faith for bending fate in my favor, but I do consider my aim fulfilled with fairness, and pray that same follows for others.
